Peace

"Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man he humbled himself and became obedient to death--even death on a cross!" Philippians 2:5-8


I've been having some really deep thoughts lately about who I am as a person and who I want to be. Life is so difficult sometimes, constantly being pulled in a million different directions. Sometimes I feel like I'm too quick and eager to change, to "go with the flow" of whatever feels right at the moment, whether it's living for God...or not. I haven't been doing well lately with my walk with Him and I could easily just say I've been busy, but that's not a good excuse. This is a really confusing time in my life as I try to grow up and do things on my own and figure out what I stand for and who I really am. Because honestly, I don't think I really know who I am.

I'm a Christian. I love God more than anything or anyone in this entire world. Everything in the entire world is completely meaningless when it compares to Him.
I trust in Him. It's not always easy to...especially because I like to be in control. But He knows my beginning and my end and I know that leaning on Him is the only way for me to make it.

I've had trouble lately with stress and feeling empty inside. I thought maybe it's because I need a guy in my life or maybe I need more friends, but recently I've realized it's because I'm not spending as much time with God as I should be. And as soon as I started spending time with Him and reading the bible, I feel an overwhelming amount of peace in my life. It's unbelievable, really. Everything that was bothering me before is still there, but I feel more confident about those things. I know that He will get me through it all.

It's hard being 20 years old in today's times. Everything is all about instant gratification, whether it's relationships, work, even electronics. We often forget to take the time to really be thankful for all that we have. I get so down sometimes, but I have to remind myself that my God will take care of me. I'm alive, I'm breathing. He's given me another chance to make a difference. Another day to witness to someone...to make myself a better person for Him. That's all that matters. Not my grades, relationships, friendships, future job, any of that. Obviously all of that is important, but it dims completely when compared to God's grace for me.

Life is short, so we have to remember that we are blessed and we were put on this earth for a reason. I'm not going to take the easy way through life and get what I want in every situation. I'm going to live for God and feel at peace with myself and who I am because that's the key to true happiness.