My two personalities

    No, I don't have multiple personalities. Don't get too excited. I've been thinking a lot lately about how each and every one of us makes choices everyday and those choices ultimately determine how the world views us. Nobody's perfect; we all mess up every now and then. And, although you may think you know someone, there's usually a lot more going on with them than meets the eye. Take me, for example. Only my closest friends and family really see all the sides of me. If I work with you, am in a class with you, even am friends with you, you may not know me completely.
    To explain, I'm going to describe my "two sides" as separate personalities. "Taylor" will be my first side, "Tayluh" will be my second (I know this sounds stupid, but it'll make sense when you read the descriptions.) So...here we go:

Taylor
    Taylor is a sweet girl. She wants to be nice to everyone and please everyone. She's a Christian and strives to be more like Christ in all she does. She has a soft spot for kids, animals, those less fortunate than her, etc. She would do anything to help anyone. Taylor gets upset easily sometimes. She doesn't necessarily cry a lot, but she has deep emotions that she sometimes lets build up inside. She may seem shy sometimes. Really, it's just that she wants to impress everyone and doesn't always know what to say or do. She's a little awkward at times, but has gotten better at brushing it off.
    Taylor has been in love...maybe even more than once. She has had her heart broken and has gotten stronger because of it. She has learned not to trust people so easily; sadly, they often let you down. However, she knows there's good in people; sometimes you just have to dig deep to truly find it.
    Taylor tries to stay positive even during negative situations. She tries to keep a smile on her face and a joke on her lips, even if it only brightens one person's day.
    Taylor truly cares about everyone, maybe too much. She'll often do something that may hurt her, just to lift someone else up.
    She clings to her faith, knowing that her relationship with God is the only thing that truly matters in her life. Without her faith, she simply couldn't make it. It's the one thing that never lets her down, never holds her back.
    Taylor loves living in the South. She wants to have her own family one day and raise her kids just how she was raised. She would like to stay close to her family and always be there to support them.
    Taylor is overall kind, thoughtful, peaceful, loving, and humble. She always tries to be polite and caring towards others.

Tayluh (nickname given by some awesome friends)
     Tayluh is pretty crazy. She's a free spirit-a hippie, if you will. She hates playing by the rules, and lives for adventure. She's extremely sarcastic, sometimes a straight-up smart-ass. She can be a bitch sometimes, but it's only because she's trying to take care of herself. 
     Tayluh is a rebel; she loves trying new things and hates monotony. She's up for about anything and just wants to have a good time. 
     She'll be your best friend if you're nice to her and fun to hang out with. Tayluh doesn't have time for people who bring her down (including guys), she'd rather move on to someone better. She has gotten in trouble before for some careless actions/mistakes and, although she regrets them, she knows everything happens for a reason and you have to learn from your mistakes. 
     Tayluh doesn't trust guys. She knows that she must be strong enough to take care of herself and meet her own goals and dreams. She has had her heart broken and knows that, although there are good guys out there, she must be careful and hesitant.
     Tayluh wants to live somewhere crazy. She gets sick of small towns and dreams of living in NYC, the city that never sleeps. She wants to settle down eventually, but wants to have as much fun as possible while she's young. 
     Tayluh may be kind-of selfish sometimes, a little stubborn, and very feisty. She is who she is and whether you like it or not, that will never change.
     Tayluh is outgoing, strong, a leader, independent, and intense. She knows what she wants and won't stop until she gets it. She's one tough bitch.


    So, metaphorically speaking, these two "personalities" are constantly fighting with each other, trying to outdo the other one. Sometime one completely takes over; other times, they both work together. This is the best way for me to explain my confusing self and the reason I do the things I do. I feel like everyone is like this in some ways, and I feel like it helps you get a grasp on your personality by really digging deep into who you are and what you stand for. I am two halves of a whole being. They may clash at times, but they make me who I am.
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